4 aspects of Waking Up: and how not to get stuck in fear.

I want to talk about 4 aspects of waking up (awakening) and to shine a spotlight on the one that’s been hardest for me in recent times. It’s the one I see so many of my friends struggling with too: waking up from fear.

Waking up has been a long and drawn out journey for me. It’s taken most of my adult life and it’s still going. It’s an internal untangling, unlearning, opening up and stretching into the expanse and freedom of the true self.

Waking up from obedience and self-imposed compliance.

It’s a wonderful thing to wake up to the realisation that you don’t have to keep doing what you have been told to do.

I’ve had lots of these “wake up” moments over the years.

The first big wake up came with my first child. I woke up to the fact that I didn’t have to conform to the expectation that I’d give birth in hospital.

After the amazingly powerful experience of a home birth many other realisations followed:

You don’t have to send your children to school or force them to do schoolwork at home.

You don’t have to vaccinate your children if you really don’t want to.

You don’t have to discipline them or punish them for “bad behaviour” even though that’s what your parents did to you.

You don’t have to believe what the medical profession, the educational authorities, the mainstream media, your parents or the government are telling you to do.

You don’t even have to stay within the confines of the law if you are willing to live with the consequences of that choice or you can find a way through the maze.

There is usually a way to slip through the cracks or under the radar, do a bit of “creative accounting”, or to play the game in your own way. This process of finding a way through opens up so much more when you don’t wear the blinders of fear or passive obedience.

Waking up to new perspectives, information and possibilities.

It’s liberating to open your mind to the possibility that things aren’t the way they have seemed.

I love having this kind of “wake up”; asking a question or coming across new information and then exploring to find what truly resonates:

Is it possible that children can learn all they need through self-directed learning?

Can homeopathic medicine heal difficult and chronic diseases and symptoms even though it contains no drugs or chemicals?

Is it possible that you are not your body and that there is life after death?

Is it likely that the whole materialist worldview is completely flawed?

Over many years I’ve delved into alternatives to the mainstream narrative on health and healthy diet, the necessity for hospital births, climate change, flouride in the water, party politics, 9/11, extraterrestrials, the criminal justice system, channeling and so much more.

There are so many rabbit holes to go down it could take all of my time and energy. Which is one of the reasons I don’t go down rabbit holes any more. At least not very far.

How do I navigate all the new information that floods in every day?

The first step is to dramatically narrow the intake of information by not watching the news or reading the mainstream media. I make exceptions for practically useful information such as changes in the law and whether a bushfire, storm, tsunami or another pandemic wave is on the way.

I’m still on FB and I pick up lots of information from family and friends so there’s a need to figure out how to relate to all of that.

I’ve found the most useful way to navigate the stream of information is to pay attention to fear. If I feel fear, then I know I haven’t reached my deepest truth.

This brings me to the third aspect of “waking up”.

Waking up from fear.

What has woken up in me is an intuitive radar I use to check out new information coming from outside well as the thoughts in my head.

Is the information or thought based on fear?

Is someone telling me that I should be scared?

Are they talking about another lot of “bad guys”, “dark forces” or “dangerous things” I should be worried about?

For example, when I hear people say “The Illuminati/dark forces are taking over the world” I hear the fear behind their words. They are basically saying. – the “bad guys” are coming to get you and me.

I understand how compelling this sort of information can be. I’ve had my attention captured by this sort of scary thought many, many times. There are so many “bad guys” these days. They could be reptilian aliens, the mainstream media, big corporations, people traffickers, governments, Big Pharma, terrorists, Bill Gates, politicians, negative entities, chemtrail sprayers, phone companies or any number of other people or things. It seems that Darth Vader has taken a lot of folks over to the “dark side”.

The trap I’ve fallen into, and that I see others stuck in, is to swap one set of beliefs for another set that is still based in fear.

The mind will always find ways to justify and collect evidence to support the belief that bad things are happening and will get worse in the future. That’s why so many people are terrified.

How many people are waking up to a new reality that’s even more frightening than the old one?

I won’t settle for that. Not out of stubbornness or because I want to put my head in the sand. It’s because that intuitive inner radar tells me to go deeper; to look for a deeper truth. One that is completely free of fear.

It’s a process that I’m still immersed in. I’m trading in all beliefs systems and unlearning most of my knowledge.

So much of the information coming in is based on someone else’s judgement of an event in the past: it was judged as wrong, bad, harmful or evil. This negative judgement of the past is then projected into the future as a scary story about “the bad things that will happen”.

I’ve woken up to many of these negative judgements as well as all the ones I’ve made myself. I know they can be questioned. When they are held in the light of Awareness their certainty dissolves. I ask myself: “Can I absolutely know that it is true?”

You may say “Yes”; that you absolutely know that dark forces are trying to take over the world.

But I can’t.

I’d rather live in the clarity of my direct experience: What my senses are perceiving and Awareness is experiencing right now – without judgements or labels.

Not blinded to the beauty of the present moment by a story about the past or future that terrifies me.

I’ve never found an instance where truth and fear hold hands.

Investigate for yourself. If you sense fear – dig deeper. Is it really true? Can you be certain it is true?

The deepest truth is always bound up in love. This is what is discovered when the search for truth leads you down the rabbit hole of your own identity.

Waking up to the truth of who you are.

When people say “Do your research” I take it as a reminder to go within and wake up, again and again, to the truth of who I really am.

I devote some more time to spiritual practice and self-inquiry. I’m curious. I extend my inner exploration.

Attention is focused in Presence and rests in the loving peace of the heart.

Out of love of truth.

Out of love of Life, love of my children and love of the world.

The true self is Beingness, Oneness, Pure Consciousnesses. From this deep truth there is only one mind. There is no separation. There are no bad guys to be scared of and no death.

The true self cannot be harmed. Not by a virus, a vaccine or any of the supposed dark forces.

When I experience the truth of our divine Being and live from there, everything is perceived differently.

Waking up to the realisation of the true self didn’t suddenly dissolve all the stories, beliefs and ego/identity I’d accumulated. The other aspects of awakening are still in progress. There’s more unwinding of obedience, more questioning my beliefs and more waking up from fears that still come to visit. But there’s a lightness to it all. Thoughts and feelings pass though much faster. The fears don’t stick around or dominate. They’re not weighed down by a heavy belief in this ego/identity.

This is the lightness of Beingness.

It’s Woke.